I am so hungry right now and none of this goddamn fucking healthy shit is doing anything. Headache. Shakes. Stomache.
I know its wrong but I crave something filthy. Pizza, steak or burgers. Ugh. Its becoming too much. Must resist.
I am so hungry right now and none of this goddamn fucking healthy shit is doing anything. Headache. Shakes. Stomache.
I know its wrong but I crave something filthy. Pizza, steak or burgers. Ugh. Its becoming too much. Must resist.
Its been over a week now since I started this diet and I can safely say I fucking hate it. No satisfaction from food. Always in a state of in-between. Never quite full but not particularly hungry. Blurgh. I miss carbs dearly (there literally isn't enough calories in the day to accommodate them and when there is the minute portions are barely worth the save).
I've developed a kind of listless emotion towards eating. Like a "what is the point?" kind of an attitude. Dangerously close to ED (in my mind). Last night I ate dinner because I got to the point where I was shaking so bad it was annoying not because I wanted what I was making.
I am really not sure how to counteract these feelings. Perhaps more research is needed to change what I'm eating to something different? Maybe I'm just being a petulant child about the whole thing but meh. I need to shake this attitude because its got to the point where I'd just rather not bother eating if it's not something I want :(
Have been made aware of an app this morning that can help track calories and supposed weight loss. Being someone that doesnt own a set of scales, and therefore was going to track weight loss by looseness of clothing, turned my nose up at it.
After a little bit of thought I figured that there's no harm in having somewhere to store how many calories I've had and how many I have left. In fact if its going to add stuff up then I am totally up for at least trying it!
.....which is when I became instantly enthralled. Suddenly my walk to work gives me 190 calories (which I don't intend to use) and I can individually add up ingredients and and and wow. Its a great little device! ^_^