Tuesday, 24 July 2012

:(

Its been over a week now since I started this diet and I can safely say I fucking hate it. No satisfaction from food. Always in a state of in-between. Never quite full but not particularly hungry. Blurgh. I miss carbs dearly (there literally isn't enough calories in the day to accommodate them and when there is the minute portions are barely worth the save).

I've developed a kind of listless emotion towards eating. Like a "what is the point?" kind of an attitude. Dangerously close to ED (in my mind). Last night I ate dinner because I got to the point where I was shaking so bad it was annoying not because I wanted what I was making.

I am really not sure how to counteract these feelings. Perhaps more research is needed to change what I'm eating to something different? Maybe I'm just being a petulant child about the whole thing but meh. I need to shake this attitude because its got to the point where I'd just rather not bother eating if it's not something I want :(

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